WARNING, SENTIMENTALITY!

I've always disliked watching people split up. Whether its a couple arguing and splitting for the sake of kids, or teen love with the wandering eyes and uncertain hearts, or friendships built on trust that crack under suspicion and lies. My parents live apart, but that doesn't get to me. What does are the other types. When I was in year 5 there were a pair of girls that were inseperable at the start of the year, and for many years before that, but by the time we were in year 6, their friendship was ashes in the wind, and to this day almost 3 years on I've never seen them speak to each other. This has happened for me aswell. A while ago I made a friend, purely on the basis of boredom, and decided to "teach" them gibberish. I used to love talking to him, he was amazingly funny, and put up with me for ages. We lost touch, for oh only a year or so, but coming back this while later, I can tell you he mastered gibberish and went on to random and cockiness aswell. Now I can't stand him, he's been an arrogant prat, and as much as the girl who loves him has been an utter bitch, he has no right to hurt her like he does. I wish I'd never me him.

Then there's the other type. The young love, with the dependancy, need and uncertainty. I've recently watched this happen as well. They were a brilliant couple, and when I first saw them together they were, (in a phrase I don't use lightly) perfect for each other. But people change. Every second inside, we think, we breath, parts of us die and parts live on, that's what life does, it evolves. That's what happened to them. He used to depend on her, I spoke to him on days he hadn't seen her, and I saw the difference in him. But gradually the change became less an less. Now he could go a few days before getting, in a way, withdrawal symptoms (as I've no other way to put it at half one in The morning only semi awake). She to didn't like going without seeing him, they both fretted about the same things without telling each other, I know because on the days they both spoke to me, the storys matched up, the worrys the same. Gradually though the change passed, he became bolder and more confident around her, she more likey to disagree with what he was saying. A couple of weeks ago people started to notice that it was going down hill, but a respectful silence stayed for the most part, I think most of us had faith that they'd hold it together. Then Saturday I texted him and got the reply that he'd ended it, indeed, for the better. He was by all means fine, he got home and ended up laughing and joking with me for the evening which was good to hear. She was worse off, but seeing them both yesterday, wednesday, its obvious they're back in agreement with each other over the important facts, her telling aforementioned bitch to just leave him alone, he did the right thing. And he did, but its still hurt inside me, just a random bystander, to watch such a loving relationship degrade. If your in my circle of friends by now you can probably guess who I'm on about by now, and I've no doubt that they'll read this, and god knows what they'll say, Devils and Angels are so hard to predict. But what I really want to say is this:
If I've loved you, if I've been your friend or helped you out, if I've been nice to you and I've respected you, even if I don't appear to anymore, even if we left on a sour note or are reading this in the future, months after I've typed it, Thank You. You've touched my life and, no matter how, it was a pleasure knowing you. You've shaped my life to what it is today, and where I'm at today is a good place to be. And I put this call out to those from my old clans aswell, Kingdom Of Loyalty, Army Of Fury, and my current, Monks Of Guthix, thank you all. Even the ones I've sworn at, even those that walked away, Water, Air, Fire and Blood, you've changed me, you've helped me, and I'm better off for you.


But most of all thank you to the ones that stayed. Wacko, RyRy, Mikey, David, brilliant guys who all have a permanent place in my heart, thank you. Georgieyy, Madds and even Kirsty, thank you girls, you've helped me see a lot.

And last of all, Brian. Teddy you've put up with me, corrected me and corrupted me, you've made me laugh and made me cry, you've been perfect and you've been amazingly weird, but that's who you are and it won't change. Thank you. I'd be worse off if it wasn't for you, you of all people know how weak willed I can be.

LOVE YOU ALL NUTTERS.

Love you all.