Repercussions Of Stupdity

Ok so TB re-appeared yesterday... And now.. I don't know. Big Brother my arse... Yeah I only said that so I didn't look... Stupid... But that didn't matter, did it? I mean this is TB for Christs sake... He doesn't wait around for people to make their minds up, He doesn't care how things LOOK, It's the truth that matters to him. Either that or he just likes hurting me (I doubt that) or maybe he will actually nudge me to a better way of doing things. I've always liked him a lot, but after previous experiences I tried (and failed) to hide it, so I just said I liked him like a big brother. "Of course I care, you're a big bro to me." That worked. Until he met my friends and started doing little things that made me feel jealous. Yes I got jealous over a 20 year old bastard I've never met... Stupid right? I go to TB about everything, unless it's to English for him. So when I said he hurt me? well In his own words:

Yes his actual initials are BB.. TB is his nickname ( Teddy Bear :3 ).

Well crap. Outsmarted by an American Because I haven't stopped being a liar, have I? Yeah, sure I've stopped openly telling lies about other people... But I'm still telling the lies to myself. I say I don't know what's wrong, when I do but I just don't want to admit it. I've been hiding my feelings because I was scared... And
I missed out on something I thought I already had because of it. I know that sounds weird... But this blog was never meant to make sense to others... Just me and others if they could work it out.

So. That was yesterdays mess. However.. That was yesterday, and unless there's another repercussion, it's gone. Thank goodness I have A.N though, that kid cheers me up so easily... We stick together like magnets at will come back together even if you prise us apart...

In other news, I saw Spikes yesterday! He's awesome! Check out Julies Gems, He puts it up, his wife says it. Hilarious if you ask me. No dream that I can remember last night...